Yesterday was one of those days that come along just when you need a reminder that the world is not actually filled with horrors.
Ellis was very kindly invited to a birthday party at the Metrocentre, I have a love hate relationship with the place. I only like parking where there are 2 spaces next to each other which is a near impossibility here and for someone that suffers from anxiety my biggest fear is no quick escape route to fresh air, there’s no windows when you are walking about and it makes me feel claustrophobic, sometimes.
I found my little bit of sanctuary after dropping Ellis off at Game and found I had 2.5 hours to do whatever I please. Yay says the Christine who craves time alone, boooo says anxious Christine – what if I need to leave earlier, what if I have a panic attack etc etc. I wandered straight to Waterstone Cafe and bought the book I had been waiting for. Notes on a nervous planet by Matt Haig. All bout how to stay sane in a world that is anything but, ironic that 2 armed cops were stood outside the window when I looked up. My incessant need to be attached to social media for my charity work and Reilly will be the downfall of me and something I need to address and get some organisation in my life. We’ll see how that goes, its not the first time i’ve said it!
I grabbed a tea, soya milk and tiffin and started to read. I could have stayed for days. I NEVER do things like this. Im that busy trying to be busy to stop overthinking everyday life I had forgotten there are simple pleasures in actually taking 5 minutes for myself.
I then decided I would do something else I never do and went for a make up consultation at Urban Decay. I an absolute gem of a girl called Rhona invited me to take a seat and we chatted while she explained what a setter was and the likes and even proved they work by doing a demo, i’m cynical, i’m not the girliest of girls and still apply all of my makeup with one finger, quick dressing gown wipe for next product, you get the picture. Anyway she was right I was wrong and that never happens. We discussed our love for Harry Potter and got to talking about Reilly, lack of sleep, autism and defibrillators in no particular order.
When I was leaving she gave me her email address and said she was inspired by the things we talked about and she would love to do my makeup for free for our winter ball in December. I nearly cried. Biggest of thankyous to Rhona she probably has no idea how much she made my day and i’ll definately be taking her up on her offer.
Little things that restore my faith in human nature. Ellis had a great day at his party, Reilly had a great day at the beach with his dad and I went to bed trying to read my book by the light of my phone trying not to disturb the tiny cherub sleeping peacefully beside me.
A good day xx