As I lay watching the man himself last night repeating the same 60 seconds of Thomas and the Afternoon Tea it brought me back to a conversation Id had a few nights before with my partners in crime Kelly and Alison. The conversation was about whether through my blog I may be causing a source of embarrassment for Reilly in years to come. I’d already thought about this many times and I still don’t know what the answer is.
I love that people are encouraged, feel less isolated, have become less judgemental and so forth but will Reilly, my son thank me for it when he is himself of an age to understand it all?
I like to think that Reilly will be like me happy to help others, I am vocal about my OCD and anxiety issues simply because it helps others, alright and it helps me a little too, but that’s me. Will he be a chip off the old block, I don’t know , can I afford to take that chance?
I’m sure the blog posts about days out and refusing to wear giraffe nappies in favour of the lions, tutting his night nights etc may be a source of amusement for him but the graphic meltdown posts, posts about smearing the walls and the fact his brother didn’t want to stay at home for a long time because of Reilly’s behaviour and sleep patterns (now resolved thank science for melatonin) I could go on and on.
He is the King in this story, his needs are first and we will stop at NOTHING to make his life as easy and as comfortable for him – am I being counter productive in writing this blog?
Would LOVE your opinions, be honest.